Stormy Skies Made Clear

Last week, I shared a bunch of crap that I was going through. I listed, in detail, all of the things that felt outside of my control and that were truly bothering me. I was trapped in one awful storm and it was wearing me down.

It felt honest and vulnerable and right. A cry for help from one woman to another, you know?

And I got responses. Lovely, caring responses, from old friends and new, about how I was doing this mothering thing right, and little tips on how I could maybe do it better.

But I as I read the comments and messages, I realized with a tiny prick of shame that they were not what I needed. I thought that the only thing that could bring me out of this muddy pit would be other people. My emotions had me in a tight strangle-hold, and I wanted some good feelings from others to iron them out.

What I actually needed came later. I was listening to The Best Yes by Lysa Terkeurst, and I had a little mini-conversation with the Holy Spirit, right there at my kitchen sink. Him reminding me that I was freaking out over tiny, physical things. Him pointing out that I was trying to play the martyr about it, too. I was worrying about food, for crying out loud. Let's not turn our eating habits into something that has earth-shaking ramifications, shall we?

All I needed was that split-second of God's perspective on my problems.

When you turn over your heart to God, your problems tend to become really, really small, and your uncertainty about everything suddenly turns into the clarity of a still-as-glass lake. The Bible is right-on when it says, "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom; all those who practice it have a good understanding. His praise endures forever!" (Ps. 111:10)

It's easy to be overly-dramatic about what we're going through. That's my default, if I'm honest, and I want to pull everyone with me into the emotional, insane rollercoaster that is my life. Unfortunately, this kind of ranks me with those stubborn Israelites.
"Then the whole congregation of the children of Israel complained against Moses and Aaron in the wilderness. And the children of Israel said to them, 'Oh, that we had died by the hand of the Lord in the land of Egypt, when we sat by the pots of meat and when we ate bread to the full! For you have brought us out into this wilderness to kill this whole assembly with hunger.' " 
(You see how dramatic and messed up we are? These people would rather have lived and died in slavery because there was better food there.) 
"Then the Lord said to Moses, 'Behold, I will rain bread from heaven for you. And the people shall go out and gather a certain quota every day, that I may test them, whether they will walk in My law or not.' " 
-Exodus 16:1-5, emphasis added
Then, in the midst of this clunk on the head from God, my brain tuned back in to my audiobook, and this phrase stuck out to me: "I take my feelings and fears and CHAIN THEM to my identity in Christ."

What is our identity in Christ? Loved, free, forgiven, chosen, called, remembered, understood...the list goes on. The Bible is full of who God is, and who that in turn makes us out to be. 

This past weekend, I have had a million more moments of weakness and frustration and anger and flat-out yelling at my dog and my husband and my baby. I have been the epitome of Not Cool. The usual things that I turn to (TV, a good book, a sweet snack) were not working. And literally the only thing that could get through to me was this whisper from the Holy Spirit,

"Come. Come to Me and rest."

And if that didn't work...

"Remember what is true. What have I told you to be true?"

In those moments where you are just done, freaking out and caught in the storm, know that He is whispering the same things to you. And all that is needed is to let go of whatever you are going through and meet God in that place instead.

Repent.
Be still.
Remember what He has told you to be true.


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10 comments:

  1. This is a really great post and a good reminder! It's tough when things feel so chaotic around us, but I'm glad you were able to vent, get some love, and some perspective! I hope you are having a great week!

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    1. Thanks! It is tough, but then, things are chaotic most of the time, right?

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  2. I'm glad that you found some perspective and you're feeling a little better about things. I also think it's important to remember that it's normal and human to struggle, sometimes even with seemingly "insignificant" things.

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    1. You're definitely right. It always feels bigger in my head, even if it is a normal struggle that so many others are going through, too.

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  3. Thank you for the reminder! I’m glad you were able to overcome your problems and find some clarity!

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    1. Thanks! Writing about it helps me see more clearly.

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  4. Thank you for this reminder! Lately I have been letting everything get to me and stress me out. I need to turn to God more often than I do.

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    1. There really is not point to stressing/worrying. It gets us nowhere. And it completely denies that God has the power in every situation! I hope you are able to put more things into His hands today <3

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  5. Hey girly :)
    I'm so glad I found your blog again, because lately in college I wish I was you - married, raising a baby, focusing on building a home instead of my airport job and papers and ROTC. I'm struggling with singlehood and being close to God, and worry about food and the future and pretty much everything out of my control. Your blog helps me remember that it's all about God no matter what stage of life we're going through. I'd love to pray for you, just let me know if there's anything specific :)

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    1. Thanks friend! I really appreciate that!! It is so hard not to be jealous of where other people are in life...but all that matters is sticking close to God and doing the next thing He's asked you to.

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